New Beginnings

I have started this post a hundred times. I've written it over and over in my head. How do I start such a heavy post...

During the summer we got news that the hubs's job would most likely be outsourced. That's all we were given. We didn't know when it would happen or how it would happen or what exactly would happen. It was unknown. It was foreign. He was in a job where we thought he could grow and be secure for a while. This whole outsource thing threw us for a loop.

We were told it wouldn't happen until January. Then we were told it was happening before January. But it wasn't clear when. We were thinking maybe October. It wasn't clear.

Then, in late August, the company who his job was being outsourced to was chosen. Our hopes were high that maybe he could get on with that company. Those hopes were thrown into the trash when he met with the company. If he stayed in his current position, he would be taking a 40% pay cut and insurance would increase by 110%. Meaning, he would be making about 60% less than he was. 

That meant the job the hubs had been in for 3+ years and was good at and growing in was ending sooner than later and there was no way we could stay with the new company. It was time to begin looking for a new job. 

We looked for a job, but could never really find something that suited us. We kept waiting for God to open doors, but all around us doors and windows were closing. They're still closed.

Right now, the hubs is trying to start his own business. It's terrifying. I don't know what's going to happen. We don't know where our next paycheck will come from. It's not easy. 

But there are wonderful things that are happening. For the first time since Bug was born, heck, since before Bug was born, we've been able to spend time as a family. It's been so nice to have the hubs here to see and spend time with Bug. And Bug is eating up all the attention from her daddy.

Lemonade people. Lemonade. I will find and concentrate on the good that this situation brings.

So right now, the hubs and I are looking into other opportunities and trusting God to provide for us. We've been here before and God has always provided for us. This time will be no different. And until we know where He is taking us, we're soaking up all this family time.

Here's to new beginnings...