our family grace: 2015.02

15 February 2015

Mommy Moments Blog Hop!

Welcome to Mommy Moments! We hope you all a week filled with wonderful memories! Let's keep it up by sharing and promoting Mommy Moments and the wonderful community we have here! I have enjoyed getting to know all the new mamas linking up and sharing their lives with us! I can't wait to hear more from you all again this week!

Motherhood has its seriousness and frustration as well as its laughs. That's why we are here. Life is much easier when traveled with companions! So mamas, let's join together in the spirit of motherhood and share our moments together. We want to hear the happy, sad, tough, terrible, hilarious moments that make being a mother the best job in the world!

The top viewed link this week belongs to The Best of Baby Lady and her post They Lied...It Matters How You Birth. What an encouraging post for mamas to be educated on the type of birth experience they want and then be confident to stand your ground even when procedures are being pushed. Thanks for the encouragement from one mama to many others Iulia!

It matters how you birth www.bestofbabylady.com

The Life Of Faith

The Not Quite Military Wife

Our Family Grace

A Beautiful Ministry

The William's Journey

Now, link up your post!

Post can include anything related to mommy-hood, children, homemaking, pregnancy etc. If you aren't a mom yet, feel free to link up your preparation for motherhood, your journey as you try to conceive, or even a post that would be encouraging to the other moms in the party!

Then, explore some of the other posts in the link-up and say hello to some new blog friends!

Please, pretty please, we'd love it if you would tweet or share the link up on Facebook so we can all make even more friends!

We would also love it if you could add the Mommy Moments button to your post or blog so everyone knows where you are linking up! If you are not able to copy/paste the code on your page, please e-mail one of us and we would be happy to send you the code!

P.S. We will be having a new guest host every week! Want to be a guest host of the Mommy Moments Blog Hop? Send Faith a message at farmprincess14{at}gmail{dot}com. We would love to have you!

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08 February 2015

Mommy Moments Blog Hop!!

The top viewed link this week belongs to Megan from Make it Count and her post Baby Hall's Birth Story! Every mama has a different birth story with each of their babies and it's so great to read the experiences that other moms have had. Thank you for sharing your story with us, Megan, and congratulation on the birth of your sweet little girl!

The Life Of Faith

The Not Quite Military Wife

Our Family Grace

A Beautiful Ministry

Redeeming The Day

Now, link up your post!

Then, explore some of the other posts in the link-up and say hello to some new blog friends!

Please, pretty please, we'd love it if you would tweet or share the link up on Facebook so we can all make even more friends!

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P.S. We will be having a new guest host every week! Want to be a guest host of the Mommy Moments Blog Hop? Send Faith a message at farmprincess14{at}gmail{dot}com. We would love to have you!

Colossians 3:17
And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

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05 February 2015

Blogging on the Backburner

**this is a hard post for me to write, but it's going to be an honest one and one that I feel needs to be written**

It's been a long time since I've had even a moment to sit down at the computer and type out. Life has run away from me and I'm trying to just keep my head above water. I have never felt so completely alone.

I'll pause here and say that I have an amazing and supportive husband whom I love with all my heart. But things aren't always happy-go-lucky and we have hit a few rough patches along the way. I also have a wonderful family who has stood by my side and helped out wherever they can. I am forever thankful for them and I am blessed to have them in my life.

But that being said, I still find myself alone. I'll use that analogy of standing still in a sea of people, you know the one I'm talking about? The one where a single person is just standing there with everyone just moving in blurs around them? That's how I feel. I'm that person just standing there watching everyone move in a fast pace around me.

Everything around me is going extremely fast and I feel like the slug who can barely keep up.

I feel stuck. I feel abandoned.

With everyone zooming by, no one seems to take notice of me. This has been going on since getting pregnant with Squish. No one seemed happy for us and no one seemed to want to celebrate with us. I was left alone. I started to really get down about this. No one seemed to care about this new little boy and our growing family. They definitely didn't check up on me to see how I was doing.

And honestly, I was struggling. I was exhausted. Barely keeping my head afloat. And I was alone. The repeated message was that nobody cared.

Fast-forward to Squish arriving. All 9 lbs 10 oz of him. I was hoping for a change. And I did get one. Thanks hormones. But I did get a change. I became even more alone and sequestered. Again, I didn't feel anyone (outside of family) truly cared about how I was doing or how I was feeling and coping.

I soon found myself traveling down that deep dark road. Everything set me off. I cried at a drop of the hat. Sure, I was happy enough. I could smile and there were times of complete happiness, and really I am happy. I'm just alone. I have no support system outside my husband and family and life is hard without a support system. Friends don't exist, and even if they did exist, our schedule is such that I can't even think about going out. But I guess it's just nice to be invited and thought of when planning something.

Community is a big part of life and I feel like my community abandoned me when I needed them most.

So here I am, writing this and I'm extremely nervous to publish it. This whole alone feeling is awful and it's kind of a downward spiral. Because of all these negative emotions and feelings, I find myself not enjoying the little things going on. It's put a strain on my relationship with my husband.

And what just adds fuel to the fire is dealing with a very difficult baby. I love my little boy, and I once heard a description for a child and it suits him perfectly: he's the happiest unhappy baby on the planet.

That's hard for me to admit. Admitting that I have a hard baby makes me feel like I am a failure at being a mom. I feel like I'm failing my baby. And because he takes so much attention, I feel like I'm failing at loving on Bug.

And here I am with tears in my eyes.

Postpartum depression is real. And it's a struggle.

To add to the craziness, things with the hubs's job is once again up in the air. We're very thankful that he has a new parttime job, but the job that brings in the bacon is in transition and we don't know where we're going to be in the next few months. It's hard. And it all just compiles and I find myself wanting to run away.

But in the sadness, I know there is Hope.

she reads truth

I recently saw this quote by Meister Eckhart about beginnings. That's what this is. This is a beginning. Beginnings are scary. I didn't want to change. I don't like change (unless it's to my house, that's fine and I welcome that kind of change), but I feel like a new beginning is what is good for me.

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Basically, life has been really hard lately so this little blog has fallen by the wayside. I hate that. This is one place I feel like I can have a since of community. It may be weird, but it's true. Thanks to this little blog, I've found some really good friends. I just wish they were closer!

So here's hoping for a little more normalcy in my life (also known as a baby who actually goes to sleep before 1 am and will let me lay him down) and the ability to catch everyone up on the goings on! I mean, tomorrow Squish will be 5 months new so there's a LOT to catch up on!

01 February 2015

Mommy Moments Blog Hop!

The top viewed link this week belongs to Winks and Eyerolls and their post Why I Left My House Messy. I'm sure this post was very encouraging to all moms who read it. It's easy to think we are the only ones with a messy house all. the. time. Maybe it isn't such a bad idea to let a little reality show when guests come over!

The Life Of Faith

The Not Quite Military Wife

Our Family Grace

A Beautiful Ministry

The Giggles Family

Now, link up your post!

Then, explore some of the other posts in the link-up and say hello to some new blog friends!

Please, pretty please, we'd love it if you would tweet or share the link up on Facebook so we can all make even more friends!

<div align="center"><a href="http://the-life-of-faith.blogspot.com//search/label/mommymoments" title="The Life Of Faith"><img src="http://i1114.photobucket.com/albums/k537/faithkonrath/cfa5ba11752f4e898055d03d33cf24e0.jpg" alt="The Life Of Faith" style="border:none;" /></a></div>

P.S. We will be having a new guest host every week! Want to be a guest host of the Mommy Moments Blog Hop? Send Faith a message at farmprincess14{at}gmail{dot}com. We would love to have you!

Colossians 3:17
And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

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