Thank you

Thank you everyone for your kind words yesterday. Today has been a rough day. I don't know what it is, but it's just been hard. I've allowed myself to cry multiple times. Sometimes you just need a good cry, and I have gotten my fair share over the past few days. 

I wanted those of you who may have experienced a miscarriage to know that you're not alone. You don't have to battle the hurt alone. Not only are there other women who have experienced this, but you have Jesus to comfort and hold you. That's something I have had to learn and accept.

I'll share more of my story later, but now I just wanted to say thank you for your kind words and prayers. They really do mean a lot to me.

Two Pink Lines

It's amazing how quickly one can come attached to someone you've never met before. But the instant my eyes saw those two pink lines, I was in love.

It didn't take much at all. Just those two pink lines. I was over the moon ecstatic. I immediately told the hubs that "Bug was going to be a big sister!" We couldn't stop smiling. I was in love once again. My heart was expanding.

I wasn't worried about things at all, but things started off completely differently. I knew this pregnancy was going to be different than my first. My cravings were different, my aversions were different, everything was different. But I didn't expect anything of it.

That picture was taken just a little over three weeks ago. Everything was going smoothly. Until the Sunday before Thanksgiving. Everything was normal for the most part. I went to church, hung out with some cool kiddos, and then went to hang out with my family to celebrate an early Thanksgiving. 

It was at my parent's house that I started spotting. It scared me to death. This didn't happen with Bug. It started to get heavier, but never as bad a full blown period. I didn't know what to think, but I prepared myself for the worst.

Today we got word that I am no longer pregnant. It's heartbreaking. I cried a lot. The hubs has been my rock. He's been so strong during everything. I'm so thankful to have him in my life.

I don't know why I'm sharing this with you, but I felt it necessary. I want you to know that if you've gone through this, you're not alone. 

If you have any questions or anything about going through this, I'd be happy to answer them. 

I'm okay. I know my baby is with Jesus, and that's a far better place to be than down here on earth, though we would have loved to meet the little one. God had bigger plans for them as an angel, and I like to think that they're up there looking down on us and watching out for us. Our own little angel.